Help...

I need help. I have so much anger and hatred built up inside of me. Every time I see or hear the voice of Nekoda's father, I explode. I really don't want these emotions inside of my heart. I don't know what to do anymore. I am hoping that time will heal. I am trying everything I know to do...I pray...I exercise...I cry...but the anger and hatred just keeps building. For Nekoda's sake, I need to get control. Any ideas??